Relationships #3

Love?

I am not sure if I want it as bad as I wanted it before.

I mean who doesn't want to be loved? Have some one to wine and dine you?

Make you feel like you are really worth it and that you deserve it?

Sometimes I do feel like, was I not lovable enough? Was I not worth the gifts

or night outs? Was he ashamed to showcase me and take me places?

A simple walk on the beach or an evening at the park?

The question does pop in my head why not me sometimes....

I know I have come a long way from the last relationship. I hit alot of

bumps in that road but the main thing now is not that I hate on relationships

that I see now it just brings all those questions to my mind.

I am not ready for love yet, nor do I think it is ready for me.

I know he is out there some where I just need him to wait patiently.......

I'll be there right by his side when the time is right, eventually <3